February Fitness

Let's start from the beginning. When I was growing up I never had a ton of limits on food. Food was accessible and when I was hungry I could find something easily. We always had big Sunday lunches at my grandparents house. There was a smorgasbord every Sunday. These meals could include fried chicken, green beans, salads, corn, pickles, and lots of mashed potatoes and gravy. There was always lot of food and no one was to get up until they had all they could want. Pop was and still is an addiction. Especially regular Coke (yummy). 

To continue with the story, there was never a time where I went hungry. In elementary school, I was heavy but I didn't realize it. I thought I looked like all my friends. There was a time on the swings where my "friends" made fun of me complaining that they couldn't push me. So, I when home and ate. Because food was my friend, it didn't judge me or talk back at me. 

My family saw me become bigger and bigger. There were times that my parents tried to tell me to slow down. I didn't believe them. I had brain washed myself so much that I was skinny and beautiful. If I was so skinny and beautiful why could I never get a date to prom or homecoming? I thought there was something wrong with me. It couldn't be my physical appearance because you know I looked perfect. So, I thought it was in my head. I must not be smart enough so that's why I couldn't get a date. By the time I realized this, I was a senior in high school and I didn't need a date. I had my best friends to go with.

This was probably one of my heaviest pictures

Graduation and college came I met new people. One of these new people asked me to go for coffee. I happily took his offer. I was excited because I thought it was a date! Well, it was and was not. We had a good time and a couple days later he texted me to see if I wanted to go for a walk. Of course I wanted to go! It was a cute boy and more time to talk. So, we went walking on a trail by my house. We started going on many walks during the week. I think we walked somewhere between 15 miles every week. One day, I told him that I have always wanted to run a 5k. He said, "Ok, we start Monday." I gave him the "What did you just say" look. But I agreed to it.

So Monday came and I was determined to show him I meant business. I wanted to show him running is not that hard. We stretched and we started running. About 10 steps in, I stopped. I thought this was hard work. He reminded me about all those people in my life that didn't think I could ever run a 5k. He also reminded me of some of my past. Then I started yelling at him. How dare he tell me those awful things. I have the willpower to do whatever I want to do. (I mean have you met me? I am a strong willed girl) He had no reason to tell me any of that. That night he called me and said he would no longer be able to run with me because he didn't want me to yell at him. We went for long walks and talked quite a bit, but it wasn't long after he got a girlfriend and she didn't like us to hangout. So, I haven't talked to him since.

Why did I start this whole running thing in the first place? Why did I think it was a good idea to get fit? Well, to be honest I really don't know. Maybe it was out of spite of him being another disappointment to me. I honestly don't know. What I do know is that I have never felt this good about myself. I have never put so much effort into one thing before. You can see results. (A whole 40lbs of results) Running has become my stress reliever. When I become stressed in school or life, a good run with my music, out on a trail calms me down really quickly.

I am going to continue on this journey and I know it is going to take sometime but it is worth it. Just the other day I was talking to my friend when it hit me. When I am a nurse I won't be able to say you can't eat that when I am overweight. I need to be a good example. I need to show them what a healthy person can do and all the things they can achieve as well. I am excited to see where this journey is going to take me.

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